this will take some time

there is a hole in my chest where my heart used to be...

08-12-10
all i ever wanted to do was love you
that was all. no grand production
no flashing lights no postal service
spotlight. just music, just fire
just quiet times and long walks
and forever. that was all.

08-16-10
is it possible to have so many different feelings at the same time? thoughts racing through my mind, who really drank the poison? and who has the cure?

let the record show that my heart is beating wildy, beating like the desert drums, beating like a heavy downpour of thunder, beating, just beating inside my chest..

time will take me where i need to go, till then i just need to find the time to let go...

idk

i don't know where to find it
i don't even know where to look
i don't know if it likes writing or reading a book

i don't know where it's hidden
i've never heard of it before today
i don't know if it likes honey with its coffee

i don't know its feelings
i don't even know if it has any
i just know it can't be bought with a nickel or a penny

i don't know if it likes music
idk if it can dance or sing
i don't even know if it can fly or even has wings

i don't know what it likes
i don't know what it doesn't
i'm curious to know if i should or if i shouldn't

does it like movies?
or walks on the beach?
i'd be really disappointed if, it couldn't speak

i don't know what to do
i don't know if i should wait
it a quarter after midnight and i don't know why it's so late


i don't know why i'm in here
and i don't know when to leave
i just know it pulls on my heart strings like gravity

feel me?