come

what is the meaning of it all?
wishing on a star that has no shine
last night I allowed myself to remember you
over some wine, red or white, I don't recall
mourning the time that was wasted
lullabying on the things we didn't do..

fighting against the fears that keep me chained
wishing on that sullen star far far away
wondering, what does it all mean again
when a quiet poet has lost her dream?
it's hard to walk away I swear
but time has made it easier on me
humming away at what I should've told you..

and the days they seem so long and drear
and the nights just drag on for what feels like years
I curse the sky that holds the stars
these nagging thoughts that break my sleep
and the words that keep ringing in my ears
I love you but I feel safer scared
while imagining what could never be
and a poet replanting her thought tree
and a poet polishing off that old star
And wine, red or white, I don't recall..