let me

Let me let go
Let me breathe
Give me what belongs to me
And you go where you should be

Let me let go
And get away from this place
The tides are slowing a-changing
I can longer hold this pace

Let me let go
I am ready to feel loved
The kind you can’t give to me
The kind you deprive me of

Let go of me
Separately is for the best
We can’t tell what’s in store for us
But the young must leave the nest

Let me let you
Grow, become a good man
Be the person you are meant to be
But not with me, understand?

Let me be me
Just say good-bye with dignity
At the end of the show, my afterglow
Will carry you through eternity

an ode in C minor

Mr. superfly
Apple between my needle eye
my new york kinda guy
The sweetest tasting lie
You're my chocolate butterfly
Like blue cheese on rye
my science without the Nye
(yea right between my thigh)
Make me say aye-yay-yay
Sweet mocha butterfly
You're my deepest low to my high
A kinda sexy coloured dye
like granny's sweet potato pie
oh my my my, ah cant' lie
you sure is fly
but why oh why
you keep passing me by?

(and now he's leaving, good-bye)

a love letter to my lover

Mr. In-between
(one lean, one more serene)
How’ve you been?
It's been a while
Since I fancied your style
(hiding) behind a sheet of lies
Mr. In-between
Don't do that to yourself
Mind your health
That too can dry -
Up up up
Do you care?
Mr. unsure, indecisive
How do you fare?
Being caught out there
Loving dually
Can't quite imagine
That being.
Must be trying
Constantly lying
(to yourself)
Yet you press on
Day in and out
(what's that about?)
How do you sleep?
Mr. In-between
You there?
Scary isn't it
Don't shy away
Not asking you to choose
Just wanna meet my muse
You're admired
A sire
The massiah
But don't you tire?
Tongue twista mista
What really goes on inside?
(You can’t hide from yourself)
Loving one
Lusting the other
No way to live ma' brother
Think of your mother
Were she trapped
In this fate
You see, you see
Just not fair to
To……..
Anybody!!!!!!!
How would you bare
Being on that side
Were you the one denied?
Mr. In-between
I find you rather mean
(One serene but not as lean)
Still lying
(to yourself)
One unaware, one secretly dying
Just buying time
In this sweet paradigm
Of make believe
(sigh) mr. in between
Why are you here?
Maybe it's yet your turn
To disappear……..

disconnected

i feel it
every minute
of everyday
won't go away
constantly thinking
analyzing
dissecting
every atom of my being
(like a machine always churning)
i have
no choice
no voice
to speak to you
it's like
i care
but i feel
like i'm losing focus
of the true us
(something inescapable)
and what is
meant to be
feel me?
no clear thoughts
it's strange
foreign
this feeling
but i can't
let go
i know i know
talking in circles
and just like that
nothing
so lost in thought
i forgot
that i was thinking

Suffocating slowly

I need space for my desires,
for my chance to fully grow and know that i've maximized my potential.
constantly in motion, pulled here and there,
the sphere of my existence is being challenged.
reaching for something,
what?
where is this place that i think i need to go?
how will i know when i arrive? running the distance required, tired, anxious, big dreams press me forward, yet there is this thing, this........weight, that holds me back. no room, not enough room for us all to fit "quit while you're ahead" it says, know your role, accept that this is all there is, that in the way of how things are you're no star (not even a stand in) merely fulfilling your part in the human race, was never promised to be a joy just simply a ploy to get you to play along. oh! now i get it.

yet i still have this need, this greed, this seed (that needs to grow to feed) this weed.

i need space for my desires.
i need space for my desires.
i need space for my desires.
just don't want to choke in my own air.

one minute

Breathing
Existing
Happily?
Living
Dreaming
Giving
Receiving?
Unsure
Stationary
Wanting
Fear
Unknown
Past
Remembering
Choices
Future
Thinking
Feeling
Empty?
Time’s up……