in a second......

.......fear grabbed hold of this soul and held her in a chokehold fear that didn't even know her name fear that she didn't know was fear at first as time stood still fear that didn't even know before it came in that it was coming fear that she didn't even know she was capable of having fear ebbed deep in the belly getting stuck in the throat trying to come out but fear on the opposite end pushing it down fear so profound fear that silences the voice resulting in soundless screams fear with tears forming on the inside of her eyelids washing away the beauty of her iris making everything blurry fear of not knowing where to hide fear that such a place didn't exist making her heart beat so loudly barely able to hear him shouting frantically "where's vanya, where's vanya????" fear that stopped her from breathing not knowing if she'd come out alive kicking fear of dying and not getting the chance to say good-bye.....

i know now of fear and it's such an acid drink i now live in fear of just one drop of that fear ever touching my lips again.