echoing deity

i heard someone say "shape-shifters", mind drifters, re-gifters?

i heard someone say truth and politics in the same sentence.

i heard someone say words that were laced with fire that burnt my ear, damn! that was cold.

i heard someone pity me, patronize me and criticize me at the same time without even taking a breath. (mad skillz)

i heard someone say "man, your poems are too long, write 'sum short if you want me to read 'um". (i gave them my fourth finger)

i heard someone say "astral travel with gold bands" and i got lost in my mind's imaginary abyss. now i'm open to all thoughts.

i heard someone whisper something in the distance and by the time it reached me it filled my heart with gladness. i think those were good words.

i heard someone talking to me in my sleep......"now only if i could get you to commit to my Word when you're awake".

i heard someone complain about the gas prices and brag about their new fendi. (oh, you got it like that?)

i heard they named one of them Ike and realised that once again my island has been saved.

i heard someone say Obama or Die.

i heard someone say "so what!!" to being different, go on girl...let it out!!

i heard someone scream at the top of their lungs verbally raping my sense of self then gently apologize the next second and i was scared. these are the signs...

i heard someone cry out loud last night for the first time (i wonder how long she's been holding that one in?)

i heard someone mention forgiveness and i must admit i'm working on it.

i heard someone with my mind and once i was able to filter out the background noise i realised i was blessed to have good energy around me.

i heard someone start but i didn't listen long enough to hear them finish. i am tired of listening to negativity.

finally..
i heard God in a dream praying for me and now i feel..
better.

i can be.

I AM.

I am…….
So far from the spectrum of perfection
I’ve erred in my living, dreaming, even my bedding
Mistakenly mistook my value, my worth
Challenged, broken, lost track of my pride.

I am……..
So afraid of my past, like a shadow
It stalks my movements
Always there reminding me
Where I used to be, the devil in me
Sometimes I wonder how I got this far.

I am……….
So sorry for those I have wronged on my journey
Those toes I stepped on, crushed and bruised
Used, my sincere apologies
But I can’t make any excuses
My behaviour was inexcusable
Some even say unforgivable
But I’ve changed and now
The woman you see
Growing, Learning, Becoming
More confident, self-assured
In love with loving
Singing sweet somethings
Laughing at nothing
Be-bopping to her own tune
Healed, peaceful
Loving herself
Needed those sagas, the many dramas
To become the woman
That stands tall, proud
Smiling brightly knowing that
I am free,
Finally.