shorts......

elements (in my mind)

talk to me in verbs and adverbs whisper sweetly make me feel like I am yours and you are mine and together we form that invisible line of symmetry. I feel your body naked on my chest to breast aligned joined at the hip and moving rhythmically to the sounds of souls singing sweat pouring sweet love making. A touch so intense that day runs to night and I just haven’t noticed how can I when my whole being is suspended in a time and space of euphoria. And we are intertwined. I wine and grind like I have never felt such pleasure pure cherry waiting to buss and spew my love dew all over you. And then we start for round two…….


the ties that break me down

i am drowning in a sea of the unforgiving
came here wid not even a dollar to my name
oh, but I planted seeds, always in my garden watering
built myself up, trying to bring a piece of home to this home
saw the waters edge drawing closer and closer
built me a boat to keep ma feet dry
but I was no match
to the strongest force on earth,
boat capsized
And now I’m barely floating…….

the morse code

i'm surprised
you didn't feel what i felt
like i'd melt in your arms
such charm
disarmed my senses
breathless
so relentlessly i pursued thee
the anti-enemy in me
wanted you.


the afterthought

I know you did me wrong
Some say we shouldn’t even speak
But understand,
holding onto so much pain
Only makes the soul weak.
I don’t have it in my heart to hate you
What a wasteful way to remain
Angry, vengeful, miserable
That kinda ish can drive a woman insane
Some ask, why write with you still in mind
But I have to remember from whence I came
I know deep in my heart, even though forever apart
I will never feel pain like that again
Besides, I know you miss me.

by the lion's side

what's on the inside?
why do I feel the need to hide
my inner core?
my pride has been such a handicapped
and I’m just running to and fro
like a yo-yo


my darling ron

i think i've lost a friend
i feel this void, so painful
always reminds me it's there
i love you with everything in me
i just hope you know
even with the distance
you're on my mind

notes in A Cappella

our song deserved an audience i suppose
you in the base, I in soprano
playing me smoothly like the keys on your grand piano
uhmmmm, a ballad with the most endearing falsetto.

i wrapped my strings round your auburn guitar
you were my minuet versed in G minor
my love for you ran up scales beyond measure
humming slow lullaby bars in iambic pentameter.

two notes cast in the most classic love theme
scripting images of our future accompanying us on the tambourine
baby, i loved you like the flute loves the soft breeze
my heart danced to your reggae beats blowing in the trees
you were the sweetest symphony i never had
till that day i found out our duo was actually a triad.

octaves pacing, organs racing in staccato
lives changing, morphing into totally different tempos
the choir grew loud, i could no longer ignore the voices
our business playing on the streets on malicious devices.

thought i'd change my style, started bellowing in alto
becoming a different person in this musical portfolio
but tragically our tune had already lost its rhythm
signs of lust and deceit plagued symptoms
chanted louder, tried to reach you through my microphone
but you were long gone before i even realised you were gone
for when i thought we were in harmony all along
after the final curtain drew,
i realised it was always a solo song.

the thing with my voice is that it sets you free
you could never out the flame burning inside me
now, i purr in a honey combed crested descant
surrounding myself with an orchestra of uplifting instruments
mellow tones with hints of neo-soul, trip and acid jazz
addictive glow and an even sexier pizazz
my flow grows with me on my lyrical cantata
as i perform my aria in a Capella

now i sing
la la la la la la la la laaaaaaaa.

i forgave her.

like a thief in the night
stole my bone from my marrow
a piece of my pie, a damn sty in my eye
childishly playing with my emotions
parading them like a peacock
handsome she was i can't front,
heck i ain't blind!
but what lied inside? a demon in disguise
man, took me by surprise....what did he see in her?
when you take what ain't yours, you don't brag, you don't boast
play shy and try to keep it simple at the most.
of course she laughed in my ear that time i called
gave her a chance to talk woman to woman
but was reminded i was dealing with a child
in this playground of lies.
made me lose focus
invaded my space, my safety zone
in a crowd forced to don a smile
all the while
ms. innocent and unaware took center stage
the lead in my original play
strutting around with stolen goods
depriving me of my heart food
i grew weaker and weaker my spirit slowly fading-
away in my own melancholic sea i was wading
and even when it felt like she stomped on my soul with the bottom of her sole, still
i forgave her.
but with God at my side and prayer as my guide
i've come to realize we too quickly mislay the blame
when the origin of it all begins and ends with him.
revenge is ugly business served cold or hot
turns you into something wicked, someone you're not
your own inner enemy and a stranger to many
picked up a few lessons along the way
she was a mere piece in this player's game
the first forgiveness should be given to him
and in the end she was perfect for him
but God had other plans for me all along
i let go the weights that were holding me down
genuinely smiling now as i walk in the crowd.
now i understand.
i had to let go of loving him
only then did the real healing begin.
now i fondly look back and say "i remember when.........."