chasings

i feel like
i can't sometimes
put into words
how i feel

i'm scared of
so many different things
and their meanings yet
these same things keep
my company when
i am scared

i

am

so

clueless

i don't even
know what to do
when something needs
to be done

who

am

i?

have you ever
heard a voice in
the distance and felt
weird when you realized
it was your own
voice?

truth is
i've been running
and hiding and playing
hide and seek with
the truth

i

can't

take

it

i hate
feeling things i
don't want to
feel

i hate
thoughts consuming
my thoughts

i

feel

so

powerless

loving you
makes me feel
weak.