i am wide open.

i feel so lucid, so weak
what is it that is draining me?
what is it?
i try to think on things but it's like there's this signal,
making everything blurry
making everything so foggy and i just can't get a clear view.
i can't even see you.
but i know you're there, but why?
why are you here? why are we?
they're times when i know without a shadow of a doubt
other times the answers are elusive
like a race, i was running off your love but now i move at a slower pace
i'm tired. tired of you?
the answers, where are they?
who has them? should they be sought out?
the truth can be ugly but i'm hungry to know my fate
i am weak in mind body and spirit
my past, your past convoluted
someone is not being fully honest here
i can feel it.

exit music

I've gotta stop my mind
Working overtime
It's driving me insane
It will not let me live
Always so negative
It's become my enemy
Save me........



(title by radiohead, lyrics from Jem)