SWERVE! (on breaking the learning curve)

It's hard
But worth a try
Seeing you differently
You're accustomed to so many games
It's like embedded in your psyche
But check it
With me
Games are best left in primary
Just gotta keep it real always
And I'll hold you down indefinitely
So no rush homie
I'm a grown woman
You're now kicking it son with the dopest ethiopian
Take your time, let it take you slowly
Listen attentively
As I give you some re-education therapy.

quiet chaos

alone but in a crowded room
their voices
echo.......echo........echo
off the walls around me
but i feel no vibrations
for i possess the art of ignorance.
ignoring the noise and hyperactivity
still, i hear the chitter chatter, the laughter
the footsteps rush past in each direction
joined by blood yet as wide as the ocean
and i alone in the corner
so loud
yet so quiet that i can hear the whispers
in my mind's eye i see the pointing fingers
i know it's my name on their tongues
stealing past my door and i wonder
is the change in them or me?

so i let myself drift
into my super-ego lair
quite comfortably
floating in another hemisphere
where i am safe
i can breathe
i can mold my creativity
and shape the better parts of me
i can re-write this theory
as to who, what and why
i can get a better control
pushing against the negative forces
that try to suppress my positive energy
speaking with the same lingua
but in a different patois
kinda like an alien vernacular
i am that change they need.

and then
just like that, snap!
the noise overcomes my synergy
singular
i'm back to where i was physically
existing mutely
yet screaming in my sound proof box
where no one can hear me
or dares to listen carefully
stationary
with nothing left to do
but stand alone in this crowded vacuum
as the walls slowly consume
my space
till someone remembers
that changed they wanted
is still here.

it's the music (in me)

i woke up this morning with music in my ears
i have a good feeling about today
i woke up this morning and had lyrics in my head
i wanna shout my song for the world to hear

what a blessing it is to be alive
as i slowly put on my dancing shoes
i know in my heart i have a sweet song to to sing
and the world is the audience i should use

i wanna make that change that will bring change
the thinking and dreaming from within
people will dance and move to my caribbean beat
and the love music will spread to every seraphin

my song will be the food that will feed many
my words will be lifted with the words that bring sweet joy
God will look down and smile at his handiwork
good job my child, let your message feed every girl and boy.

it's the music
it's the music in me....

a warning

hey missy
sitting oh so very pretty
all the other girls must envy
you
but not me.
ya see,
i've learnt the alchemy of inner beauty
and that's the secret to why
my outer chi
shines
and i could go on and on and on.......

i am
beauty in black
inside and out
there is no doubt.
so i say to you sissy
sitting so high strung and pretty
mind you don't fall.
go on, take your voodoo
somewhere else
there just ain't enough room for two
Here.

thinking.....

i'm thinking, what's my next move? like, right now life is good but i'm restless. i'm trying to please everyone but i feel like i'm losing parts of me by giving in to their needs. so you, mid-twenties with so much responsibility. i've always been a runner finally learning how to face things head on but still i'm restless. i want to be the best me possible, i want so much for myself and my family it's crazy. crazy the ways i want to succeed, the projects i want to be involved in, tying to stay positive but around me there's so much negativity. it's just not that easy. so what do you say to someone like me? hang in......

the shape of me

i can't keep up
one minute i'm crawling then i'm walking
and walking and then running
trying to catch up to what
i left behind
trying to rediscover my spirituality
and what truly belongs to me
like what do i deserve?
who should i trust?
am i living as i must?
so used to pretending
i'd lost the true me
the 'genuity' that lies in all of us
he made us in his own image
to be different, to live differently
yet i try to fit in
so afraid to be the antI
why?
the questions i want answered
too scared to ask
so i'll just keep looking
till the solution finds me.

serendipity

i wasn't looking for you
yet you're here
and now i'm drunk off the love you give
and i dance in the shades of our canopy
i've been waiting for a man like you
patiently
didn't want you to come unto me
till you were ready
and yet you found your way here
beautiful
and now i'm enveloped in your melody
and so hungry for the
possibility.