disconnected

i feel it
every minute
of everyday
won't go away
constantly thinking
analyzing
dissecting
every atom of my being
(like a machine always churning)
i have
no choice
no voice
to speak to you
it's like
i care
but i feel
like i'm losing focus
of the true us
(something inescapable)
and what is
meant to be
feel me?
no clear thoughts
it's strange
foreign
this feeling
but i can't
let go
i know i know
talking in circles
and just like that
nothing
so lost in thought
i forgot
that i was thinking