Gratitude (i wanted to come up with a really deep and artistic title for this but the message is too simple to 'complexify')

(been feeling so many different things recently, losing myself? i don't know but)

i want to thank you for leaving, you taught me how to live without you

i want to thank you for hurting me, you taught me how to be strong and seek God

i want to thank you for the air i breathe, the food i eat, the shelter that keeps me dry and the warmth and love that only a family can give

i want to thank you for leaving me for her, you showed me that i was not the one for you and you were not the one for me either

i want to thank you for sharing your popcorn with me on evenings after school, you taught me how to appreciate kindness

i want to thank you for not judging me even when i didn't think i was worth more

i want to thank you for speaking so negatively about me, it taught me how to ignore gossip

i want to thank you for being my first, it was worth the long wait lol

i want to thank you for bringing me into this world, for giving me a chance at life..

i want to thank you for walking out on your family, it brought me closer to my mother and in the end......you

i want to thank you for sticking around, even though you weren't welcomed

i want to thank you for sharing in my happiness, for a moment there i felt complete

i want to thank you for entering my midst even if it was for a short while, you taught me one of my most important lessons to date........self-worth

i want to thank you for loving me unconditionally, you taught me it was possible...i miss you

i want to thank you for being honest, you taught me what it feels like to be in something real

i want to thank you for providing the shoulder i can cry on, i really needed it over the years and will probably always need it, so don't take it a way

i want to thank you for inspiring me to write, you showed me that i can be more than i ever envisioned

i want to thank you for ups and downs, you taught me how to appreciate my trials

i want to thank you for telling me like it is, a little truth might've hurt a bit but in the end it helped

i want to thank you for not letting go so easily, you showed me that some things are worth fighting for

i want to thank you for walking a way so easily, you showed me that what God wants for me trumps anything i may think i need for myself

i want to thank you for ignoring me when i begged you to stay, you taught me that i never have to fight for anything that is really mine

i want to thank you for opening my mind to music, even though we're strangers now i will never lose my inspiration

i want to thank those lies, they taught me how to try to speak the truth always, even when it hurts, even when i am showing my weaknesses, i can close my eyes at night knowing that what i said was honest and from the heart and no one can take that a way from me

i want to thank you for jealousy, you taught me to appreciate that i am beautifully made even when i don't always fit the standard

i want to thank you for my failures, you taught me how to rejoice in my successes more

i want to thank you for second chances and countless more mistakes, as long as i don't keep repeating the same old ones i should be in good standing

i want to thank you for those jokes you told me everyday in my sad days, sometimes it was the only laugh i could muster and yet they were the corniest jokes i have ever heard, thank you for being there come rain, come shine...

i want to thank you for friends i have lost over the years, i know they are the angels watching over me

i want to thank you for my mother, she is my air in the morning, she is my quick call in the afternoon to say hello and she is in my prayer at night, she is like my spiritual backbone.

thank you.