i am a prisoner of my past
confined by memories that cut the glass of my subconscious
this pain resides within the atoms of my being
and i can't describe the devastation that is this feeling
imagine falling and forever falling no ending
yet wishing you could just crash into something
anything....to break the monotony
so fearful of sleeping as images jump out at me
even with my eyes closed no sleep
awake in the maze of a vision i can't forget
sigh* i regret even bringing this up
but i sometimes wish i could close my eyes....
i feel like i've been
ringing the same old doorbell
with no answer
i feel like i've been
banging the same wall
forever
i feel like i don't
deserve anything at all
like i'm worthless
yet i long to give
mind heart and soul
to someone else
can anyone hear me?
can anybody understand what it feels like
to be stabbing your own heart with a knife
tiny jolts ring through my body and never let go
usually, on any ordinary day....i feel so low
i am, indeed, a prisoner of my past
a prisoner of a memory that resides in my subconscious
a captive in the heart of my soul's core
kidnapped and bound by threads i don't
even know how to let go or run from
as the pain overfloweth my cup
sometimes i wish i could just close my eyes....
(and never wake up)
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