rambling

i'm not who i used to be
i'm changing..rearranging
shifting hemispheres and consciousness
subconsciously working overtime
perennial war in my mind
i'm not who i use to be
i see different
smell different
talk differently
my vernacular has veered off
inconsistently
i'm uncomfortable
miserable
i'm not who i used to be
i am running
getting tired
walking
dragging my feet
i feel weak
and my head hurts
thinking
too much thinking
i miss the self i was
when i was myself.
recently
i've been missing who i used to be...