blue

sometimes it is so hard to stay positive when negative thoughts creep in so easily. i never propose to know all the answers but there are some questions i don't even know who to ask. frustrated. today i feel sad because i feel as though my future is in someone else's hands, hands that don't heal, hands that don't help, angry hands. hands that destroy.

i know why the caged bird sings and i should probably sing along as music is the one of the few things that makes me feel strong. (oops, i'm rhyming, this is not meant to be a poem).

a wise friend once told me "never fear the end, prepare for the next step" but i am having been trying to step for the longest time but my feet stay planted. i must be here for a reason? faith vanya faith.

sometimes it's just so hard to stay up, especially when i feel like i have no control (over the lies that are told), over the misconceptions, i just wish someone would ask ME a question, damn! i have a voice..

i always say i should never take work home, so why am i here thinking. i will not cry but i am feeling it and worry has sorrowfully taken over (for now).

"when one door closes another one opens", "day runs till night catches it"..blah blah

i think i'll go take a bath and lie down.