a lament to a memory

The thing is,
I never envisioned a you and me
I’d already seen my epiphany in another somebody
He was most definitely my destiny
And even though we could never be
I still longed for him as my family

He was my ultimate epitome
He was….
Everything I wanted for me
Like I was looking in the mirror
Reflections, same smile, same style
The electricity.
Scents of familiarity.
Didn’t need no internet, no TV
Preoccupied by the lunacy of our present reality
(away from the land of sun and sea)

Gentle musings on Descartes and his philosophies
Marvin Gaye and some red wine – Chianti
Kept our company, daily
Before we discovered each other intimately
To retire to dark covers to make our own melody
(sometimes I miss the music of he in me)
Communing telepathically
In moments of solitude he was my soliloquy
(I sang because I was happy)

Eyes, ears, mouth appealing to my sensory
Disarming wink sent butterflies fluttering through my body
Not knowing eventually
All I’d have left were bittersweet memories
Of what we could never see
Inevitably our union was only temporary
there was no happily ever after story
It was written
There would never be a “we”
And I was left with just me.

And now you walk in,
and this new “we” is so unlikely
I perceive a lot of I in thee
But it’s a totally different scenery
And now I’m afraid you’re trying to mold me
Into yet another she
And I begin to miss the me I was……
With he.