i forgave her.

like a thief in the night
stole my bone from my marrow
a piece of my pie, a damn sty in my eye
childishly playing with my emotions
parading them like a peacock
handsome she was i can't front,
heck i ain't blind!
but what lied inside? a demon in disguise
man, took me by surprise....what did he see in her?
when you take what ain't yours, you don't brag, you don't boast
play shy and try to keep it simple at the most.
of course she laughed in my ear that time i called
gave her a chance to talk woman to woman
but was reminded i was dealing with a child
in this playground of lies.
made me lose focus
invaded my space, my safety zone
in a crowd forced to don a smile
all the while
ms. innocent and unaware took center stage
the lead in my original play
strutting around with stolen goods
depriving me of my heart food
i grew weaker and weaker my spirit slowly fading-
away in my own melancholic sea i was wading
and even when it felt like she stomped on my soul with the bottom of her sole, still
i forgave her.
but with God at my side and prayer as my guide
i've come to realize we too quickly mislay the blame
when the origin of it all begins and ends with him.
revenge is ugly business served cold or hot
turns you into something wicked, someone you're not
your own inner enemy and a stranger to many
picked up a few lessons along the way
she was a mere piece in this player's game
the first forgiveness should be given to him
and in the end she was perfect for him
but God had other plans for me all along
i let go the weights that were holding me down
genuinely smiling now as i walk in the crowd.
now i understand.
i had to let go of loving him
only then did the real healing begin.
now i fondly look back and say "i remember when.........."