Friday, November 07, 2008

chasings

i feel like
i can't sometimes
put into words
how i feel

i'm scared of
so many different things
and their meanings yet
these same things keep
my company when
i am scared

i

am

so

clueless

i don't even
know what to do
when something needs
to be done

who

am

i?

have you ever
heard a voice in
the distance and felt
weird when you realized
it was your own
voice?

truth is
i've been running
and hiding and playing
hide and seek with
the truth

i

can't

take

it

i hate
feeling things i
don't want to
feel

i hate
thoughts consuming
my thoughts

i

feel

so

powerless

loving you
makes me feel
weak.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I'm weak too, and feel as though I'm alone much of the time. Even when around friends. It's pretty hard to make that connection. It's like reaching out in the dark not knowing what you're looking for. Anyway, I pray and that gets me through the dry and lonely times, which is often.

maaga..... said...

it is humbling, these feelings and sometimes i feel too hopeless to pray....imagine that....and then i feel ashamed for losing faith...but i feel you..

...for your words...thank you.