love:evolving (how things change)

i don't know

why these things happen

why the feelings once had now seem forgotten

trying to find

the right words to say

to justify my reasons for walking away

questions, answers?

nobody knows

why we struggle so hard to make something grow?

something once magical

now gone up in smoke

the ashes from the flames now leave us to choke

it's not the words

the emails or letters

it's the picture torn to pieces in that fit of anger

the gap that has left

this writer feeling blocked

as her thoughts she's been keeping in a box

i don't know why

i could never express

the way i felt through our emptiness

no words, i've no sounds

to really explain

so i guess i'll have to write that love letter again

to the lover i had

that was oh so sweet

the notes in my words of my heartbeats

i can't explain

why we couldn't make it through

and i don't want to end it with corny "i love yous"

but i'll say this much

i just don't know why it is

that quiet recognition i found before still lives...

in you.

Requiem for a Heartbeat

you're the one responsible

for the perceptions i have

you walked into my world

with so many bags and red flags

i was your peace army to calm

your broken, tortured soul

but we can't outrun the past

gotta give up your shadows

all the pain (let it go)

what we reap is what we sow

can't turn back the hands of time

let it go

let it go

it's simple how we both feel (something real?)

challenges they come hard and fast

gotta take the good with the bad

'memba that communication is the key

talk to you and you talk to me please

the feelings i have change with the tide

faith and trust should be our guide

whether slow or fast ride i've learnt

gotta give up my pride to survive

all the pain (let it go)

what we reap is what we sow

can't turn back the hands of time

let it go

let it go

i loved you before i even knew

things change, rearrange and multiply

karma caught up to both of us (no lie)

but there is rebirth, there's a chance inside

life happens so that we could grow

now we are re-con-nec-ted souls

lessons learned the hard way

should still teach though

gotta give up your ego to truly grow

all the pain (let it go)

what we reap is what we sow

like footprints on the sands of time

let it go

let it go

all the pride (i've let it go)

all the lies (i've let it go)

all the pain (i've let it go)

all the rain (i've let it go)

as the sun shines (welcoming)

on wings flying (welcoming)

soaring high (thanking Him)

finally i'm free........free to love me.

love:evolving (it's in the way you are)

i don't know why
it's not a taste or a sound
it's in that empty feeling when you're not around

i can't describe it
in an email or letter
it's in the me just wanting to always know you better

i guess it's the small things
done between us everyday
the pain when i feel angry or the magnetism that makes me stay

it's not a smell
it's not a taste or a sound
it's that 'lonely but in a crowded room feeling' when you can't be found

no words
no expressions, folktales or phrases
no nouns, adverbs could possibly describe the way it is

for it's in the air
that blows through the trees
it's in me always staying when i know i should leave

i just don't know why
for it's not a taste or a sound
it's in the quiet recognition of the thing i've found....

in you.