I AM.

I am…….
So far from the spectrum of perfection
I’ve erred in my living, dreaming, even my bedding
Mistakenly mistook my value, my worth
Challenged, broken, lost track of my pride.

I am……..
So afraid of my past, like a shadow
It stalks my movements
Always there reminding me
Where I used to be, the devil in me
Sometimes I wonder how I got this far.

I am……….
So sorry for those I have wronged on my journey
Those toes I stepped on, crushed and bruised
Used, my sincere apologies
But I can’t make any excuses
My behaviour was inexcusable
Some even say unforgivable
But I’ve changed and now
The woman you see
Growing, Learning, Becoming
More confident, self-assured
In love with loving
Singing sweet somethings
Laughing at nothing
Be-bopping to her own tune
Healed, peaceful
Loving herself
Needed those sagas, the many dramas
To become the woman
That stands tall, proud
Smiling brightly knowing that
I am free,
Finally.