today was one of those days that i tried to keep myself busy so i wouldn't have the time to think yet every moment of stillness i had they were still there, my thoughts, my doubts and insecurities, why am i uneasy? so many questions i want answered, answers you want to run away from, but somebody has to give. i've gotta stop my mind......
free fall...
i was falling
why didn't you catch me?
how can you say those words
then let me fall so easily?
i was living my life for you
molding my being around you
and when i stumbled you just watched me
crumple into nothing.
you were never in my original script but i fought my fears, swallowed my pride....when i said i wasn't drawn to you the first time i lied....i'd already let you inside from then. we all got things to hide in the beginning, till that cherry's burst. true colours ...now revealed....all i really want is something real. something to hold onto......i want you to want it too.
simple
uncomplicated
connected
reciprocated
unconditional
i've been there before
but that was so long ago
i can't remember the feeling(s).
i wanna let you in, in...inside
i want you to hold the key to unlocking me
i think i want you to love me
but i don't want you to at the same time.
in a crowded room i see no one but you
you're the first person my bruised heart runs to
how could you be the same one to tear it, break me down
i know i am strong but i can't hold
this door of uncertainty for much longer
i know what i want i just don't know if it's something i need
emotionally too tired to feel.
emptying myself of you yet it's only you who can fill me......
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