sorrys and realizations

what does it mean...sorry?
a word meant to erase pain?
come again.....sorry you found out
what i'm really about? apologizing for old scars?
(you don't even know who you really are,
your mind and your soul are at war)
we've all got em (scars), ain't nothing new to your hide
difference is you wear your lies on the outside
(me i wear my pride)
that's how i knew. so sorry won't do this time
not another rhyme on how you made me feel (freal)
i gotta find a way to heal......forgive? sorry.....
usually followed with hollow promises
that seem appropriate at the time...but
have very short life lines once things have cooled down.
so what does it mean...sorry?
a word, a phrase to make something broken whole again?
like a band-aid to a torn spirit....plastic?
the truth of a man can be the sweetest sound
but now all i hear are distant echoes of when the truth was around......barely breathing.
then i gotta hide from everyone to avoid the questions.....
girl you been crying? where's your glow?
where's that rainbow that used to be
following you round like a shadow?
(yea, damn! where did he go?.....come back home)
i don't care to talk it out, or get it out, i don't know
but i know i shouldn't keep it inside, a sorta ambivalent ride.
i know i am stronger than this. i know i am.
but something keeps boiling in ma' heart
knew you was a troubled man from the start
but that drew me in so i am guilty of being curious.

you keep searching but you don't know what you're looking for......
you keep running from the scars you've made and the ones that are......still there.
deal with them my dear. deal with them.

everyone can't be a hero, someone needs to be rescued
and that is you babe....that is you. now i'm seeing it's you.