something real

i had a prayer session with Kevin on friday. imagine that. that was the first time we really sat down and spoke in depth since we parted ways back in 2005. what a year that was. it's so strange, you always say if you had that one person right in front of you you would say to him/her everything you ever wanted to say to them and then they're right there, looking into your eyes and you say nothing. i guess we've both moved past each other, plus it wasn't really the right scene anyhow, we met up to talk about God, still, i remember our times....wrote something about him a day back in 2007 when i was in a pondering mood i thought of him.......

kevin
the hardest part was walking away from you
not looking back, but you left me with little choice
if only you hadn't given up on me, on us.
sometimes i wonder if i'd be better off if we still were
you made me feel so secure, never a doubt
i knew it was me running across your mind all the time
the time we spent was timeless but maybe we moved too fast?
i don't know yet i was so sure
when i met you, i thought this was it
i allowed myself to feel complete even before our second date
when i laughed it was genuine and when you smiled it was golden
the pain i felt when it was over wasn't new, i'd felt pain like that before
yet somehow it was more bittersweet as i knew i'd never meet anyone like you again.
i wish you'd given us a chance, and even though i've moved on
i can't help but think sometimes.....things would be easier with you
but my pride got in the way and now we're just strangers online
saying hi from time to time. and i wonder on you. i miss you.
certain songs always remind me of you......
it's like you're still there, wandering around in my subconscious
it bothers me sometimes, but i've come to live with how we are.
and how we will never be.